The biggest regret.

We all have years we want to retrace.
A way we could change a time, a date, or a minute.
If we only had one minute to talk to your past self, what would you say?
Is there anything you would say? Yes? Then, in that case, you would like something to change.

We are on the same page.

I don’t know where my actions and my paths lead to where I am at now.
I wish, I would, I change. All if I could.

Sometimes I gotta pray to God that he could bring me back in time to change a couple things.

Before that point life wasn’t that tough. It was like when you stop being a kid and one day you are mature; you change. But this was like a second life, a second moment.

It might be describable, but it’s ununderstandable. One day everything was fine, not at the top of the rollercoaster, but it was fine. Suddenly it started slowly going somewhere; we don’t know if it’s up, down, left, or right, it’s just going somewhere.

Not lost because it’s your first time traveling around. How could you be lost in a place you have never been? You don’t even know it to know if you’re lost. But also not recognizing an old road. It’s a new experience, and there are many new things ahead, but so far you’d rather not experience more than what you have.

The more you know, the less you know. The more you go out and experience, the worst it's going to be, but also the best it's going to be.

Average life means holding on to the same things after so long. A crazy, depressed life is when you gamble those things. The place we want to be is where you are able to get new things while leaving some along the way.

And I wonder, if you know, to find your dreams come true.

I yet to find mine.

I want to find it. To me it is scary that there are odds and that there is a realistic way of life. When did we ever made life realistic? Just because everyone is used to it doesn’t mean it’s realistic. Yes, life is real, but what I mean with “realistic” is “look around.” Look around at all the elements that make life—the earth, the planets, the stars, the galaxies, and the plants—and how each and every single one has life, so do animals. Let’s be honest, this is too good for this to be common sense, to be “realistic,” to be common, or to be a mistake. If life itself isn’t realistic because of how special it is. Maybe that’s why the people who break the system, the ones who are willing to risk it, the different ones, the weirdos—those are the people that become special.

Maybe that’s the lesson: life is so unrealistic, we are also supposed to be unrealistic. Go against the ones who gave up and had no dream. Maybe this nowhere looks like nowhere because barely anyone gets this far. You know, the farther you go into the country, the less infrastructure you see. Maybe you're closer to your treasure than you think.

*I wish I could hear my advice and stop being so stuck*

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